Dead Dad,

Why did you bring me this far? Did you bring me this far only to show me how it feels like?

Why did you marry my mom?

Why did you carry me to the hospital?

Why did you send me to school?

Why do you always sing but you did not teach us how to sing?

Why did you not ever attend my school PTA/family day or any activity?  You did not attend any of my recognition rites and my graduation ceremonies my entire life? Dad, why?

Why did you not guide me to choose my sports when I was teens?

Why did you not teach me how to choose a girlfriend?

Why did you not bring me to a park?

Why did you not buy me toys when I was a kid?

Why did I not experience kiss from you?

Why did you not even care for my first urge of sex?

Why are you always mad at us even if we did not do anything bad at you?

Why did you not teach me how to play basketball?

Why do you always look for a reason to scold us?

Why did you not buy Life Insurance?

All these questions I have asked my entire life.  All these questions I have kept my whole life. But I never asked you this questions when you are still alive.  Now that you are gone I would always keep these questions in my heart.  I will wait for the time that when I meet you in heaven I would still have a chance to ask you the same.

Don’t wait for the last breath of your loved ones.

Ask them your questions. There is no harm in asking.

Time is Gold

Time is Gold!

As the saying goes so as your life.  The time you spend to your loved ones will create or it will not create memories that you will treasure when they pass on.  My father and I had a rough day I would never be wanted to do for my family.  Your precious time will spell a great difference to your children.  Do something worth changing to your usual routine.  Do something that they will treasure.  Do something that they will enjoy and treasure.

Spend time with your family every single day of your life.  Time is the most precious gift you could ever give to your family.  Be with them every single celebration, it might be wedding anniversary, birthday, graduation, moving up-day or even just a simple learning you’ve got will create a wonderful definition of your time with them.

Don’t wait for their last breath.  Do n’t wait for your chasing moment to visit them in the hospital because they are fighting for their health.  Don’t wait for the time that you are available to visit them during their funeral or at their tomb.

Life is so precious to waste! So everytime to are given a chance to be with your loved one, take a pause and ask, how will I make this time worthy for us to treasure.  Take every single moment of your life as if it is the last day of your life.

As for me, I could not bring back the time to tell my dad how much I thank him for bringing me this far.  Though I am thankful that no matter how rough childhood I had, no matter how undesirable life we had during those time.  I believe that God has fostered my strength to face the challenges I had today.   Those moments that I missed could be restored by remembering the time with my dad without grudges.  Those moments that I miss his hug and kiss when I was longing for one was my iron that sharpens my emotion quotient.

Today I can face tomorrow with a smile and tears.  Smile that no matter what happens I am strong and courageous to what will life brings.  Tears that no matter how tough situations in the future, I am sympathetic to others to encourage them and support their needs.  I am confidently an epitome of steel who stands in the middle of rain or shine. That no matter how rusted I am, I am still strong and able to be used in any way.